Day 15


Woke up at 10.30am today... My hp alarm woke me up... -.-" Feeling sleepy... But must get up early if wanna chat with CS... So, dragged myself up... brushed my teeth, had my breakfast which is 2 donuts and then online... Yay!!! He onlined!!! :) Happy!!! But sadly... da 1st word from him is " What's da meaning of convey?" -.-" haiz... tot it will be something like "I miss you"... or etc... -.-" but who knows?? Da1st sentence is that... -.-" haiz... disappointed... but nvm... as long as I get to chat with him is good already...

Well... good things don't last long... And it is very true... A little while later, he told me he's busy with his academic stuffs... wanna find info bout his course, I think... So, alright... din chat with him... din even disturb him... or keep nudging him or msgin him... I just carry on blogging... and then put up this message on my MSN's personal message... "People miss u soo much and all u did is say bye...WTF" that's all... And continued blogging... And then, guess what??? He's frus with me... Just because I put that msg... WTF... Hey look... I din even blamed you, k??? I just put up da msg only... and he's frustrated with me and thinks that I'm disturbing to him... WHAT THE FUCK!!! and... that's the end of our little chat... He went off for his 1st lecture today at around 12.30pm... his lecture starts at 1.30pm and ends at 2.30pm... Guess he went for his lunch1st...

Anyway, continued blogging... and then chatted with Seet... and then Yi Ling came online too... but she put invisible... lol... had fun chatting with them... Told Seet and Yi Ling bout what happened... and she reckoned CS is in da wrong2... And shudn't have been frustrated with me... Oh well, you really understands how I feel, Chareli... :) Yi Ling, on the other hand said that I shud take a step back... as quarelling with him soo far from me is dangerous... -.-" Oh well... I duno... -.-" And then, 2.30 pm arrived... and he online again... At first, I tot that I'll chat with him if he pm me 1st... but suddenly I remembered bout his QET... So, decided to pm him 1st instead... to ask him bout his QET result... Apparently, he still haven't got it yet... so... that's it... din chat with him dy... until he pm me... and asked if I'm still frus... Well... honestly... I duno how I'm feeling... Guess, I'm too tired dy... too tired with everything... plus I'm damn hungry at da time... so... dun have da mood or energy to feel anything... -.-"

Mummy came back at 3.15pm... -.-" I'm starved to death dy... -.-" Finally, got to eat my lunch... Fish ball mee... (Reminds me of our little secret : Fish bully me) haiz...

*sigh

After lunch, back online again... Seet asked me to watch LP's video... Chester's damn funny in da Bleed It Out video... Da way he stands is really hilarious!!! WAHAHAHA!!! Chareli reckoned he looks like a chicken... ooo... His butt very very "qiao" le... Lol!! haha!! :p He looks a bit like an addict for me... :P no offence!!! Anyway, watched da video for quite a few times... damn funny!!! :p And then, had a big row with him... haiz... He said something bout everytime it's his fault or he's wrong... and I replied oic... and then he asked is it because he treated me too good dy??? I'm lost for words... really lost for words...

*sigh

After a while, things started to seem a little betta... but just for a while only... -.-" Well, he still cared bout me... Asked how's my finger and leg... sweet... caring... but still somewhere inside me is not satisfied with da way things are settled... So... send him email and expressed my feelings... -.-" and then... back to war.... -.-" And a little while later, he went offline... feeling frustrated...

*sigh

A little funny incident happened tis afternoon... Well... I'll blog bout it later at night... Right now I'm of to bring doggie out for its evening walk... byebye...

*I've got blisters on my leg and it hurts!!!! I'm limping now... and I accidentally cut my finger...

P/S: haiz... I wish... you could have been more understanding...

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