~ Problematic Adolescent ~


I have no idea what is the matter with me today... Been feeling emo and fucked up since early in the morning... And it seems to be getting worse... Couldn't even concentrate in studying Food Microbiology properly and the Midterm will be on this coming Tuesday... And yet, I haven't even started on it... wtf...

What the hell is wrong wih me today??? Why am I so emo today??? Is it because of stress?? Or PMS?? Or I'm just an attention-seeking adolescent?? Or a problematic adolescent??? I need attention, I know it very well... I need attention from specific people, I guess... I really don't understand the problem with me now... wtf... I seriously need to study... yet I couldn't even concentrate... HOW???

One month ago, a few days before this very same day, I was emo too... Crying for days and nights... Due to some reasons which most of you had already known... And now, out of no reason, I am emo again... But I don't feel like crying... Or maybe I do?? I have no idea... But one thing for sure, I feel empty and hollow inside... I wonder if it is due to hunger?? Or due to some unexplainable reasons??? I wonder what it is...

I don't feel like talking at all... don't feel like entertaining anyone... Just feel like being alone... But being alone doesn't cure my emo-ness... I need your attention... But who can give me??? Sigh... I hate this kind of feeling... Why is this happening to me at this moment??? Why am I not allowed to concentrate studying??? WHY???

I need answers... and who is able to give me???

what the fuck....

i am who i am
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