~ Under-controlled ~


Why is it everytime like this?? Why is my decision never being respected?? Why you never approve my decision?? Why do I have to listen to you everytime?? Why do I have to do what you say?? Why am I not been given the freedom to do anything I want?? Why do you all everytime have to disapprove my actions?? Why can't you all just let me be and let me get hurt?? Why do oyou all have to be so over-protective of me?? Why do you all don't want allow me to grow up?? Why on earth am I so stupid to tell them what I did?? Why on earth am I so honest??? FUCK!!!

*sigh*

When on earth will I ever get to do everything myself?? When on earth will I ever get to decide how I want my life to be??

*sigh*

I really regret it... Telling you all what I did... Though it is not everything... but just some... I swear I will never tell you anything anymore if this is what you all going to do... Why can't you all for once approve and support my decision?? Do you think we are still living in your era?? Do you think I am able to get anyone or anything I want in the future??? Why can't you just approve my decision??? Do you think the people nowadays are just like the people during your time?? Do you think everybody is trustable?? How to trust someone whom you just get to know for a few months in this era??? It takes time to trust someone this time... There are so many cheaters out there... But why... WHY do you still think it'll be better and easier to get a boyfriend when I start to work in the coming years?? Is there any difference??

I'm 20 going 21 this year... If I am to work next year, I'll be 22... Am I not at the right age to get a boyfriend?? Am I still not allowed to make my own decision??? Then, why on earth do you allow my bro to have gf?? Why you never asked him to concentrate in his studies 1st instead of having a gf when he fails in his exams?? WHy are you all being so unfair??

You mentioned he is good... You even had dinner with him before... Yet why do you still not allow me to have a bf?? Why do you keep saying I am too young to have a bf?? WHY??? Why can't you just trust my judgement for once?? Why can't you just give me a chance?? Why can't you just fixed your mind and stick to your previous decision?? Stop being so fickle-minded, can you??

*sigh*

I hate my life...

Sorry, dear... I love you...

i am who i am
9:04 PM

~ Addicted!!! ~


I'm currently addicted to CS301... hahaha... My baby boy!! Addicted to Cs so much... Sigh... Miss you!!! Good luck in your last paper tomorrow!! Don't give up!! You can do it!! Muacks!!! Ganbatte!! I believe in you!!! lols! Imagine... after your paper tomorrow, you are free to do anything you want... (except betraying me... lols!) hahaha! You can game as long as you want with no one stopping you... Well, maybe me once in a while as I need some attention from you to! :P hahhaa... You can go play badminton with professor, your frens, etc... Too bad... You only can meet me 3 weeks later... Sigh... Sad... sad....

Anyway, GOOD LUCK!! ALL DA BEST!! YOU CAN DO IT!! GANBATTE!! JIAYOU!! JIAYOU!!

Love ya, always! :P

i am who i am
7:43 PM

~ Thanks, dear... ~


Today had been a great day... Woke up at 1pm... -.-" Wtf... Initially set my hp alarm at 9am... but ended up waking up at 1pm... Can't help... Da weather was good today coz it rained early in da morning... haha... Think it rained since last night... :P And Cs did not wake me up too... -.-" :(

Anyway, right after waking up, went to brush my teeth, and then went out for breakfast + lunch with Cs, Dean and Damien... After lunch, went back to Cs's room... and prepared to go out... Yeah!! Cs's bringing me out!! :P Soo happy... haha... Really never expect he will really bring me out... As he is still having his exam and he has not finished studying for his last paper... Feel soo bad... Sigh... Thanks, dear... For bringing me out... Muaks... Appreciate it a lot... hehe...

We went to City Hall... That's where da big durian of Singapore (Esplanade), the Merlion and the Singapore Flyer is... haha... Though those places are kinda boring, but still with Cs accompanying... it's fun!! lols! Took a few pics there... Not much... Just a few... haha... And yeah!! A nice "ang moh" couple helped us took a pic!! :P hahaha... Never expect to take pic together with Cs... -.-" but I'm glad there's still one... :P I'll upload it some other time... as I am not using my own lappie now but my cousin's... Coz I'm at her place... Going back with her tomorrow early in da morning... Sigh... I don't wish to go back... :( Can I stay here longer with my dear??? :(

*Sigh*

After taking pics with Mini Merlion, we went to Raffles City... Initially thought of going to the Flyer... But then, it was like almost 5pm and we had already asked Ardy and the others out for dinner together at 6.30pm at Clementi... Don't think there's enough time for us to go to the Flyer... So, ended up went to Raffles City lo... Had Ben's & Jerry's!! :P Yummy!! How I wish it is opened in M'sia too... lols!! Shopped a while at Raffles... And damn!! I lost my EzLink card which Cs lent to me... Sigh... Feel so bad... :( So sorry, dear... :(

Had to buy a new Ez-Link card... Feel so bad... :( Anyway, went to Clementi to meet up with Ardy, Qi Yun, Wan Qing and Tzu Hui... Waited for nearly 1 hour for them... And Cs got pissed... -.-" Coz I am supposed to be meeting my cousin at Jurong East at 9pm to go to her place together... But ended up, I can't make it on time... And Cs has to accompany to Chua Chu Kang all the way instead... :( So sorry again... Made you unable to study... :(

And here I am... in my cousin's room at Chua Chu Kang... online-ing... haha... I miss Cs too much... right after we went separate ways at Chua Chu Kang MRT station... I had to go to take the LRT and Cs had to go back to NTU... :( Almost teared when I saw him just opposite me at CCK... So near yet so far... :( Really doesn't wish to go back... :(

Need to wait another 3 more weeks again... only can meet my Cs again... Sob... Sob... :( Did I mentioned we had a fight yesterday?? haha... It was not a good experience... Thus, I don't think I will elaborate much on it... But still, I must say... I like it if quarrel when we're together... haha... Coz it won't be so bad... and Cs'll hug me after quarreling... so nice... :P So, dear, next time want quarrel, quarrel face to face har!! :P hehehe... I'm mad... I know... I can't help it... lols!! And I can't help it if I am being too mushy here... hahaha!! This is my blog... My place to let my feelings out... :P hahah!!

Oh yeah... Not to forget... Thanks, Ardy for da lunch yesterday!! haha... Shall treat you next time! :P And thanks a lot, Dean... For allowing me to stay with Cs for the past few days during your exam period... haha!! Appreciate it!! :P

I miss him... :( I'm feeling so bad... :( Sigh... Pray hard... He'll score this Thursday... May God bless my Cs... Thanks for everything... Thanks for bringing me out... Thanks for allowing me to go find you although you are having your finals... Thanks for letting me to disturb you... I'm so sorry if I made you mad during my stay... But I was only mad coz you made me mad 1st.... lols! :P Well, not actually all your fault la... I am also at fault la... Shall compensate you next time... muaks... Love ya!!

I wonder when will my next trip to Sg be... -.-" I'm starting to like Sg more and more... lols! :P Till then... Thanks, dear... Love ya always... Muacks!! GOOD LUCK!!! JIAYOU!!!

i am who i am
11:59 PM

Did I mentioned I did not spend any $$ at all today?? except for da MRT and bus?? lols!!!

Thanks a lot, Hui Zhi for treating me for da dinner... hahaha... Shall treat you back da next time you come to KL!! lols!!

i am who i am
11:59 PM

Fuck!! I just realised I did not blog about what I did today... hahaha!! Well, basically, I woke up at almost 11.30am this morning... Can't help it... Slept at 3smth last night... -.-" And then, went for breakfast + lunch with Cs and his hall mates at Canteen 11... Next, went out to SBS to meet Ardy and Wan Qing to see them study... It was like 3.30pm when we reached there... haha... See them study for like 45 minutes while playing Pet Society and then went out to meet my cousin at Jurong East at 5pm... Yeah!! Went to Bugis Street and Bugis Junction... But can't find the things I like... :( How sad... Din get to buy anything... :( Save money... hahaha... Had dinner at somewhere near Bugis Junction... Cheese baked rice with pineapple and ham + iced milk tea... Da cheese baked rice was nice... But, da portion is quite big... Almost vomitted coz it gets kinda gross after eating like almost half of da portion... -.-" Ended up, couldn't finish it... Sigh... Feel so bad for not finishing my food... Wished my rubbish bin (a.k.a. Cs) was there with me then he can help me finish it... hahaha!! :P

Anyway, after dinner, went back to Bugis Junction and then we went to Orchard... Got lost in Orchard as my cousin forgot which road leads to Takashimaya... -.-" hahaha... Ended up shopping at Far East Plaza... Couldn't find anything I like too... Though I saw a few bags nice, but as I wanted to see more and have more choices, I ended up not buying anything... -.-" Sad... Save $$ again... haha...

We're both tired and legs are aching... Thus, decided to go back... We went separate ways at Jurong East as my cousin's staying at Chua Chu Kang and I need to go to Boon Lay... Nearly got lost on my way back to NTU... (can't help it... It's due to little information and my own stupidity...) But still, I must admit... I am very proud of my sense of direction!! Hahaha!! I still managed to find my own way to Canteen A to meet Cs, Ardy and Wan Qing (although I took a longer route instead)... It's quite fun getting lost alone sometimes... I get to explore more... And, I get to burn off my fats after eating cheese baked rice... hahaha.... Yeah!! Exercise is good!! Thus, conclusion is: Getting lost is good!! And being so stupid is good too!!

Oh God... I'm starting to feel hungry again... -.-" Can't help it... After walking that long journey from Hall 1 to Canteen A and somemore it was by the long route based my own instinct and sense of direction [walked passed ADM --> NBS --> finally Can A (I don't know which turning bus no. 179 take at the roundabout actually...so I took da longer route...)], I am now hungry!! Aarrgghhh... Need milk!! Fresh milk!!! -.-" Fuck!!

I NEED FARMHOUSE CHOCOLATE MILK!!!!!!!!!!!!!! T.T :(

i am who i am
11:59 PM

~ FUCK!!! I'M SUCH AN IDIOT!! ~


What a day!! I'm totally an idiot!! FUCK!!! I guess what you said about me is true... I'm just too dependent... Or am I not??? hahaha... Somehow, I don't feel so... If I am what you said, I wouldn't be who I am right now... hahah... Fuck...

Seriously, I had no idea what am I most pissed off with right now... You or your incomplete information or my own stupidness... I totally had no idea... If I were to be pissed with you, I would end up be da person you said I am ---> A too dependent on you person... wtf... If I were to be pissed with your incomplete information, hey! That's your fault... You should be responsible for that... wtf... If I were to be pissed with my own stupidness, sigh... Can't help... I am, as what you and my parents used to say, just plain stupid... Can't get a single thing correct... wtf... I hate myself for that...

I guess... the conclusion is... I am fuckingly stupid... Wtf... And I am fuckingly dependent on you... wtf... haha... Maybe I should start doing things my own without asking you to help me or your opinion... hahaha... wtf... It's not your fault... And I am not blaming you for that... I am just plain pissed with myself.... hahahahaha...

What the Fuck!!!

i am who i am
11:58 PM

~ After Finals... ~


YEAH!!! Exam is finally over!! hahaha!! Ended two days ago... And yeap!! I'M IN SINGAPORE!!!!!!!!!! WAHAHAHAHAHA!!! And it's my first time travelling all alone to a new place!!! Woohooo!!! hahaha!! Never expect myself will ever get this kind of opportunity to go travelling alone... But it's great!! And I'm a bit nervous and scared though... But, still... it sure is fun!! hahaah!!

Well, I'm actually not very sure wanna go to Singapore or not until the very last minute... -.-" hahaha... That's my style at da moment... Bo huat... Parents not so open-minded... Sigh... Thus, I only can decide at the very last minute... lols! Anyway, was at first kinda regret with my decision of coming over... Even this morning, yeah... I still feel I made a bad choice... However, after today, I started to like my days in Singapore... And how I wish I have more $$.... and longer holidays!!

*Sigh*

Get to know more friends liao... haha.... Nice people... At first, I was like totally not used to see soo many Singaporeans right before my eyes... They, somehow, gave me a erm...undescribeable feeling.... hahaha... But slowly get used to it.... And yeah... Sg is quite fun... only that it's kinda expensive for a poor M'sian student like me... :( Too bad... Need to save more $$ for my next trip!! haha!!

NTU is sure big!! And nice!! haha... Slowly falling in love with NTU... And hate UCSI even more... -.-" WTF!! lols!! NTU is indeed a university... unlike UCSI... -.-" wtf.. hahaha!! Da only bad thing about NTU is that: It is too big for tiny me... It has too many staircases... And in order to go from one place to another place, it'll takes me at least 15 minutes... -.-" wtf... And everytime reach that place sweating like I'm just out of shower... wtf... -.-" But, without these, how can we call it as a uni?? haha.. Universities are supposed to be like this... haha!! How I envy Cs... :(

*Sigh*

UCSI SUCKS!!! UCSI SUCKS!!! UCSI SUCKS!!! UNIVERSAL CURRENCY SUCKER INSTITUTE!!! INDEED IT IS!!! -.-" WTF!!

Lols! I bet, if I am studying at NTU, I won't be having this kind of body size now... -.-" hahaha!! I'll be slimmer!! lols!! Blame it on UCSI being soo tiny... -.-" Walk 4 blocks then the end... Telling Qi Yun how UCSI is also makes me feel ashamed... -.-" wtf... hahaha!! Bo huat la... She asked me what do I think about NTU ma... And asked me which uni do I prefer ma... UCSI or NTU?? -.-" Definitely NTU la... UCSI where can be called as university??? -.-" wtf... cacat UCSI!! -.-"

Enough crapping... haha... Though did not get to go out explore Singapore, I still had fun walking around some parts of NTU... haha... Though it's hot and tiring, still it's fun... Coz I get to experience what Cs is going through... Get to know how a real university life is... Sigh... Da more I think about it, da more I pity UCSI... -.-" Pathetic UCSI...

*Sigh*

Day 1 in Sg has passed... Day 2 is just about to end too... wait... it already ended 3 hours ago... look at da time!! It's 3.18am!! -.-" Day 3 is already here.... hah... Day 1 was not so fun... As I was damn tired... Day 2 was not fun at first... But it got better after 3pm... lols!! Had Sakae Sushi buffet... and da cashier must had made a mistake... As I am not a NTU student, thus, I should be paying $20... But who knows, da lady charged me as NTU student price... -.-" hahaha!! I'm lucky!! lols!! Or do I have da NTU look?? hahah!! I'm mad...

Anticipating Day 3... Will be going out to meet my cousin in da evening... Wonder where will she be bringing me to... Orchard, perhaps?? hahaha... We'll know about it soon... Till then... Ciaoz!! :)

i am who i am
2:57 AM

I miss you...
I miss you a lot....
And I wish you all the best...
In your 1st paper tomorrow...
Give it all your best....
You can do it...
Ganbatte!!!
Fighting!!!

i am who i am
10:45 PM

~ The Tale of A Brainless Girl ~


It's 2.20am in the morning and yet I am still here... What the hell am I doing here when I am supposed to be in my bed hugging my babies to sleep??? Wtf...My plan to sleep early failed once again... And I seriously hate myself for that... Sometimes, I do wonder if I am doing the right thing, staying up so late when I should get enough sleep myself... wtf... I'm just a brainless git who doesn't know how to control myself and stick to my original plan at all... Fuck!! I shouldn't have bother so much about what I don't understand and go to bed... Sigh... I hate it!!! Me and my busybodiness (if there is such a word)... -.-" Sigh... And I seriously just can't get to bed without writing off my feelings... It'll make me insomnia... -.-" Thus, here I am... Crapping in my blog... To my readers, it is called crapping... But to myself, it's my own way to let out my feelings...

You don't have to force yourself to read this if you do not want to... Nobody is forcing you...

i am who i am
2:19 AM

Candid pic with Dr. Ivan... yeah! Let's poke him!! :P

After that, went back home and ate my lunch and then prepared for violin lesson... Was once again late for violin lesson although I went out from the house 1 hour earlier... -.-" Wtf... UCSI shuttle bus is getting more and more inefficient... -.-" So paiseh to arrive late at class... Luckily, my teacher doesn't really mind... haha...

Violin lesson ended at 4.35pm today... And I straightaway rush to UCSI North Wing to catch the bus... In a hurry to go back home and put my violin and get my stuffs to meet Zizi for diving lesson... Yeap!! You read it right... DIVING LESSON!!! D-I-V-I-N-G L-E-S-S-O-N!!! :P Hehehe!!! Was damn excited... lols!! My 1st time ma... hehehe... :P

Both of us walked to South Wing to catch the shuttle bus... again for me... -.-" I walked to South Wing 3 times today le!! And I walked back from South Wing 2 times today le!! -.-" I'm lame... lols... Anyway, met Mr. Victor a.k.a. Mr. Waste while waiting for shuttle bus to arrive... And yeah... da bus uncle was surprised to see me once again... haha!! He asked me, "Awak balik dari sana, now pergi ke sana lagi??" Hahaha!! And I told him that I'm going for diving... lols!! And asked him until what time the shuttle bus will be available and sadly, was told that it's only until 7pm... :( Meaning me and Zizi have to walk back home... :( WAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!But for diving, we are willing to do so!! haha!!

Reached North Wing 15 minutes late... haha... Bo huat la... Too many cars on da road liao... -.-" And luckily they haven't start... We registered ourselves... and then went to change into our swimsuits... Was told that we're to wait for our turn... So, we get to swim while waiting for our turns... Yeah! Swimming!! And my first time at North Wing's pool too!! Was kinda surprised to find out how shallow it is... Only later, I found out that the bottom is not of same depth like the pool in Angkasa Condo (that's where I stay and always swim at!)... Kinda scared as not used to swim in pool with different depth... -.-" 7 feet is the maximum depth of the pool... Really really not used to it!! :S Couldn't even feel or touch the bottom when at the deepest part of the pool... -.-" Scary... @.@

Anyway, a good news, I guess... The president of the Swimming Club (I think he's da president la... overheard a girl asking him if he's da president... lols) suddenly appeared out of nowhere and somehow blocked my way while I was swimming my 1st lap in the pool... -.-" And he told me, he likes my frog... wata... -.-" I hate frogs... ha... Well, actually, he told me I've a good froggy style (meaning breaststroke)... surprisingly... -.-" And asked if I ever entered any competition or interested in entering competition... -.-" I was out of breath when he blocked me and I just shake and nod my head... Duno what I am shaking and nodding my head to... -.-" And then, he pull me to the poolside and called out the Diving Club president (I think she's da president..haha..), Cherry, and asked her to put a mark on my name... -.-" Which indicates, he might (or will??) contact me for training... -.-" HUH??? TRAINING???!!! OMG!! Mana boleh... I just swim for fun and to exercise plus to keep fit and slim (Coz Cs always complain I am fat..wtf.. -.-")... Not for competition le... -.-" I don't wanna have too broad shoulders... T.T I like the size of my shoulder now... T.T Please don't let it be any broader anymore... :( How??? -.-" Can I somehow reject his offer to make me into the team?? -.-"

*faints*

Don't want le... Training means I have to go to North Wing everyweek just to swim liao le... And it's so damn FAR!!! And wasting time waiting for the shuttle bus... :( I'll go training if you make it at Angkasa Condo's pool! haha! But then, think again... If I made it into the team and won something in future, hehehe...how wonderful it will be... only will feel a bit like Uni life ma... haha... Only can show off to Cs I got medals ma... WAHAHA!!

*daydreaming* (wtf? It's night now!! -.-")

Oh well, let's just wait and see what happens later... No use to think soo much of it right now... Wait till he contacts me... haha... Then only decide... hehe...

Anyway, we seriously had fun scuba-diving!! hehe... Too bad... it's just for a short, extremely short, mind you, route!! -.-" wtf... It's like just less than 10 steps... -.-" Le sigh... But it's still fun getting to play with the oxygen tank!! Woohoo!! I'm a "suaku" with oxygen tank... lols! :P But we just got to play with it for like 10 minutes?? -.-" And then, the end... Got up and washed ourselves... Mana tahu, toilet no water and electricity... WAT??? UCSI'S TOILET NO WATER AND ELECTRICITY??!! Din pay bills isit?? haha! Nah.. da toilet's still new... Haven't fully started running it yet gua... Ended up, shampoo-ed our hair at the shower beside da pool... -.-"

And finally, after we're slightly cleaner than earlier, we walked back... Went to pasar malam for dinner... haha... and then, balik rumah mandi again... And, that's it...

Conclusion: I walked more than 1.5km today + swimming + diving!! Dead tired... But still, I here typing this... wtf... hahaha!!

Cs's asking me to sleep... But I'm not done with my assignment yet!! It's da last one for this sem!! Must get it done by tonight!! -.-" Wait har....

Ok! Done! Nite, folks... :P

I need atention... Sigh..

i am who i am
1:07 AM

~ Drowning...... ~


How pathetic... No one came to rescue me when I needed help... I guess I shouldn't have ask for help in the first place...

Fuck it... Where are you people when I need you??? All these realistic people...

You were there when they needed you... But where are they when you needed them, CP??? Stop being a fool!! You are nothing but just someone they make use of...

WTF!!! It's the time when the demon controls....

*sigh*

Pathetic.......... This is life........

i am who i am
4:12 PM

i am who i am
5:57 PM

It hurts.. But what can I do?? Time flies... People changed... Everyone's changing... Maybe I should just follow the wind and change together along with the others... Or maybe not?? I just wanna be myself... But it hurts...Maybe if I change too, it won't be that hurtful?? Or will it be even worse?????

Whole mind is messed up... Everything is messed up... Will soon fall back to my emo side... The emo side once again will conquer me... my whole body, mind, heart, etc... WTF...

It's damn stressful enough to have those fucking assignments and reports and finals going on... And there's this another bomb landed on me, apparently, just few hours ago... wtf...

I'm getting pissed and pissed with the fucking Analytical Chemistry Assignment... A damn fuckingly stupid assignment which totally has nothing to do with what we learned in class and has no use for us in the exam... Why on earth are we given such a fucking assignment??? Find out the specifications, prices, etc.. of AAS??? Whatever the use of it??? We're not even intending to buy it... We're not even a post-graduate student... We're still undergrads!!! Why on earth did you give us this fucking assignment??? What kind of assignment is that??? I don't have the ambition of becoming a saleperson or a supplier or a manufacturer of AAS in future... Why on earth do I need to do this fucking useless assignment now???

FUCK!!!

Totally not in good mood!!! Plus with another bomb.. It makes everything even worse!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am who i am
2:26 AM

~ The song that suits my mood best now... ~


Do you know (Algoiietnayo) - Someday

nan haessare nuni busin singgeureon achimi omyeon
sarange nuneul tteumyeo norael haeyo
ojik geudae hanaman wihaeseo

For You I love you only you seolleineun mam gadeukhae
hyanggiroun keopiboda budeureoun
naui sumgyeollo geudaereul boayo

anayo geudaeneun neukkijyo geudaedo
gaseumi malhago inneun sarangirangeollyo
deullyeoyo ijeneun boayo ijeneun kkotboda deo areumdaun
sujubeun maeumeul

nal barabwayo naui soneul kkok jabayo
haengbokhan gibunijyo nunbusin unmyeongijyo
sarangui hyanggie misojieoyo

nan barami bureo omyeon salmyeosi du nuneul gamgo
saranghae jumuncheoreom soksagyeoyo
ireon naemaeum neukkil su itdorok

geudae nae nuneul boayo seolleineun mam gadeukhae
mabeopgateun kiseucheoreom ttasaroun
naui maeumeul ijeneun boayo

anayo geudaeneun neukkijyo geudaedo
gaseumi malhago inneungeon sarangirangeollyo
deullyeoyo ijeneun boayo ijeneun kkotboda deo areumdaun
sujubeun maeumeul

nan yaksokhaeyo uri soneul kkok georeoyo
haengbokhan gibunijyo nunbusin unmyeongijyo
sarangui hyanggie chwihaeboayo yeongwonhi

anayo geudaeneun neukkijyo geudaedo
gaseumi malhago inneungeon sarangirangeollyo
deullyeoyo ijeneun boayo ijeneun kkotboda deo areumdaun
sujubeun maeumeul

oroji nan geudaemaneul saranghamnida


English translation:

When the blinding light
Of the morning comes
I open the eyes of love and sing
For only you
For you, I love you only you
Filled with my restless heart
With words smoother than the fragrant scent of coffee
I look towards you
Do you know darling?
I know you feel it too
The words of your heart is "love"
I hear it now
I see it now
This timid feeling that is more beautiful
Than any flower
Look towards me
Hold my hands tightly
Such a happy feeling,
Such a blinding fate
I smile at the scent of love
Whenever the wind blows
I gently close my eyes
And whisper a charm of love
So that you may feel my heart
Look into my eyes darling,
That is filled with my restless heart
As warm as a magical kiss
Please accept my feelings
Do you know darling?
I know you feel it too
The words of your heart is "love"
I hear it now
I see it now
This timid feeling that is more beautiful
Than any flower
I will promise
That our hands will always be together
Such a happy feeling,
Such a blinding future
Let's get drunk off the scent of love
Forever
Do you know darling?
I know you feel it too
The words of your heart is "love"
I hear it now
I see it now
This timid feeling that is more beautiful
Than any flower
I love you and you alone


Too bad... I'm too lazy to find the song and upload it now.. haha.. maybe some other time.. lols! But if you wanna hear it, pm me and I'll send it to you... By the way, it's one of the OST of Kkotboda Namja (Boys Before Flower or Boys Over Flower)... :D

i am who i am
12:22 AM

For no reason, I'm feeling damn weak and lethargic now... I wonder why.....

i am who i am
10:42 PM

~ Lesson learned... ~


Hey! It's April!! And yet I have not blog anything! And I actually missed out April's Fool!! -.-" Anyway, Happy Belated April's Fool, everyone!! Hope I'm not too late... haha...

Just crapping in this post... Not really in the mood to blog much as kinda busy lately... Assignments deadlines, reports deadlines, finals... -.-" It's enough to drive me mad and earn me a place in Tanjung Rambutan or Tampoi... whichever suits best.... haha...

Final's starting on 17th April 2009 yet I've not started on my studies yet... wtf... My plan... has been destroyed by tonnes of assignments and reports... -.-" wtf... I'm getting lazier and lazier each day... sigh... I need to catch hold of myself again, I guess... -.-"

Anyway, good luck to all!!

I've definitely learned my lesson after the incident which happened today.....

i am who i am
9:57 PM