I wonder... Why am I the one who says sorry 1st even though some of the time I may be right??
I wonder... Why am I the one who starts talking 1st everytime??
I wonder... Am I really that lazy??
I wonder... Am I really that kind??
I wonder... Am I really that sincere when saying sorry??
I wonder... Am I really that stupid??
I wonder... Are you lucky or am I stupid??
I wonder... Are you always the right one and I am always the wrong one??


It's been so long since I last hear the word out of your mouth... And it only happened once this year...

Labels: emo, relationship

i am who i am
6:08 PM

~ Final Year!!! ~


New semester had started for 2 weeks... And this semester onwards, will be my final year!!! Woohooo!! Graduating soon!! Thus, obviously, da subjects got tougher... -.-"

*sigh*

This semester we'll be taking Fundamentals of Food Engineering, Nutrition and Metabolism and Research A... For your information, Fundamentals of Food Engineering is indeed engineering... -.-" Nothing like what I tot it will be... It's full of alien language... (physics, mind you) -.-" Anyway, have any of you heard before a subject need 3 lecturers to teach??? And mind you, it's a short semester subject... which means, 7 weeks of classes only... -.-" 3 lecturers leh!!! -.-" UCSI must be seriously mad... either the lecturers are incompetent to teach alone for that subject, or otherwise, da lecturers have no other subject to teach, thus UCSI assigned 3 lecturers for one subject... -.-"

And once again, 3rd week coming in... and it's time for quiz for short semester... -.-" Next Tuesday will be da first quiz for this semester... Food Engineering... How wonderful!! And to make things even better and merrier, I totally have got no idea about Food Engineering... Talk about physics... wtf... -.-" I never understand Physics... it's totally alien to me!! And even better... My lecturer actually taught us by just reading the slides... this one add to this one then become this one... wtf... -.-" And she can even get blur by it herself... and finally.... we got da answer... OMG!!! Dead... Next Tuesday... really my death time... Time to prepare my coffin... -.-"

Well, what else can I do when I dun understand alien language?? Ask for help la, of course... Thus, I decided to ask for help from my super duper smart engineering bf... and guess what??? I just sent him da question... It was actually an example from my lecture notes which I totally have no idea what it is saying... And when he received it... he asked... what do I want him to do... So, basically, I just asked him if he knows how to do it... And guess what reply I got??? "Ahha... typically you..." Some of you readers of my blog most probably do not understand what does he meant by the sentence "typically you"... Well, let me explain... There was once a girl, yours sincerely, who asked him some questions about chemistry and maths... and there were some time when yours sincerely's brain is not functioning well thus, asked for answers and solutions straight from him... And he is particularly mad about giving yours sincerely answers straightaway... And thus, yours sincerely is being labelled as a lazy person in his mind forever...

Isn't that wonderful??? hahahahaha... And thus, whenever yours sincerely asked him a question that she does not understand, he will automatically says yours sincerely is lazy and asks yours sincerely to do herself before asking him... I wonder... how does he know yours sincerely never try doing it herself before asking him when he wasn't even beside yours sincerely all the time??? wtf...

Yours sincerely is fuckingly pissed off by this attitude of him and decided to blog about it now... Yours sincerely seriously does not understand why on earth yours sincerely is forever labelled as a lazy person in his mind??? How does he know yours sincerely never try out herself before asking him anything??? And why does he seem soo glad to help other people whenever they have a problem they don't understand yet whenever yours sincerely asked him some questions, he will straightaway asks yours sincerely to do it herself first?? Why don't he asks other people to do it themselves first before asking him??? Why is he treating others even better that yours sincerely??? Why is he sooo willing to help others yet unwilling to help yours sincerely unless yours sincerely shows him that yours sincerely had indeed tried doing it herself???

Is there someone who can explain to yours sincerely???

If you don't know how to do it, you can just say you don't know... Nobody is going to laugh at you for not knowing how to do some physics questions.... Nobody dare to laugh at you... You don't have to go around saying yours sincerely is lazy and never try it first before asking you!!! This attitude of yours really pissed me off!!! You made me feel so not going to ask you any questions about studies anymore!!! Since you've labelled me as lazy, then fine... so be it!! I shall forever be in ur mind as a lazy person!!!

Fuck you!! I love to use this word whenever I am pissed... And I use this word to anyone who makes me pissed... So, FUCK YOU!!!!

i am who i am
4:07 PM